&the greying vision

Wednesday, January 17, 2007 10:47 PM

the only thing i'm feeling right now is hungry!
HUNGRY HUNGRY HUNGRY!
cos i haven eat the entire day!
it's merely hungry la!
i've got the urge to go over to macs and and buy a filet fish meal upsized!
but..
hais! phobia! lol.
with frens over there i dun mind.
but alone gng there....
abit er.
and i dun wish to meet that person!

din't go school today.
cos studied till 2am ytd
and was lazy to go school.
hees.
and i'm not gng school tmr.
having the thots tht i'm gonna study till 6pm.
i faint.
last year still okayla.
at least still have motivation to study cos of o levels so can tahan so long.
but now is can go die la.

oh yea.
i was VERY unsatisfied with my performance today.
i knew myself very well i can finish it.
it's just merely a barrier in my heart just now.
and yet, i failed to cross over.
the feeling ~~sucks~~.
and i seriously hate it.
it just makes me feel i'm weak.
and tht wasn't the best tht i could do.

and guys, can say it's a good news for some yet bad news for others.
i've decided to withdraw from pjc in one/ two weeks time.
i'm not like richie who has something to abide by.
=P
and i heard he's one of the hottest guy in j1.
haha.
and guess wat.
there's ppl saying tht both of us are very pei.
haha.
i laughed off my ass.
we were toooooo close to be those kind.
and i joked with fred.
imagine one day seeing sihua and richie holding hands coming meet us?
omg.
i'll stay there and laugh for at least 5 mins man!

and since i got nothing to do now.
i'll get emo.
lols.
okay.
it's time for me to say byebye to pjc.
there's always a need to say bye.
and now it's my turn.
thou it's hard but i need to adapt to the new life i'm having now.
and carry on with life.
i admit i had fun in pjc.
and had the urge to con't in pjc even after o level release.
but i know i can't stand the disciplinary matters there.
i know myself clearly, im not those who can adhere to rules and regulation.
based on the past records, i think i'll definitely finished in jc.
the pace there i can feel very strongly that it's fast.
and ppl like me, who like to do things at their own pace cmi already.
thus, i dun feel like having a 2 year jc course and becoming a 4 year course.
back to topic.
i had fun in pjc.
and this is definitely one of the period of my life i will keep it in my heart not forgetting.
the frens i made there was fabulous.
and i admit tht i'm still very quiet in some sort of ways.
and yet to open up my feelings to them.
but i cherish them.
they are very great bunch of frens.
janice seowhuan nasri kanesh yici and many more la.
you guys should know i'm not good at names.
so, i'm sorry for not typing your names.
and not forgetting our 3 beloved agents.
tiffany khalilah and darrell.
they were fun.
you must been thru this personally to understand fully wat i've said.

in the beginning of 2007, i've said enough goodbyes.
pls god dun let me bide anymore goodbyes.
i hate it.
i don't like it too!
the feeling simply sucks alright?!
cos i hate parting.

and i've been listening to this song.
George Benson - Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You.
and i got really down.

oh yea.
it's time for me to stop buying bras!
hees.
the bras from La Senza are aint enough.
i got a hot pink + purple (my fav color) sports bra! hees.
i love it man!

and the last thing.
our school's b boys zonal competition started.
and i went to support them.
jiayou.
bring ctss basketball to another greater height!
and should i go mac for my food.
i'm craving for pasta mania! yummy!

loves,
`cindy

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